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Sunday, October 22, 2006

procrastination central

i am attempting a preemptive strike for the "where is question girl" posts and comments that i have been invoking recently from my faithful bloger friends

if i proceed to pull a ghost over the next week, here is what i am up against.....

i admit - much of it is my own fault - i tend to work best under pressure (aka - time crunch)


i SO should be doing paperwork right now

anyone who knows anything about special education knows that special ed teachers have more paperwork than anyone can imagine

i actually asked an administrator the other day 'so, um... when am i supposed to actually teach?"

yeah - not so much of a good move

so.... i am really behind on my paperwork so i lugged a crate (*hanging head in shame - yes, i have one of those collapsible buckets on wheels w/ a handle) and TWO bags of paperwork home

on friday - i got home and spent half an hour organizing all of my paperwork on my dining room table and office desk....i then proceeded to take a nap..... then i fed the dog and went to bed early....

on saturday - i got up, took care of the dog..... stood at the table and stared at the work... i reorganzed some stuff... and then watched two college football games... and then i napped during the world series game..... off and i e-mailed, took the dog to the groomers, paid bills, balanced the check book (which i am proud to gloat has some cash in it for now AND was balanced already!!!!)..... and then went to bed early AGAIN

today (sunday) - i got up, took care of the dog, took a nap, and FINALLY at @ 3 gave in and started doing my paperwork... the paperwork that was in the bags.....

now i have to begin to tackle the crate and i am avoiding it like the plague

oh - and did i mention i am fighting off the sinus infection from hell AND bronchitis?!?!?!?

could someone just take me out back and shoot me to put me out of my misery????

so the next time i disappear, just re-read this post - it will give you a good idea what is going on.....


Wednesday, October 18, 2006

know the value of a woman

"Be very careful if you make a woman cry, because God counts her tears. The woman came out of a man's rib. Not from his feet to be walked on. Not from his head to be superior, but from the side to be equal. Under the arm to be protected, and next to the heart to be loved."

~ the Talmud

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Sunday, October 15, 2006

life as i live it

to answer jen's recent question regarding the disenfranchised youth of the world vs. my life as a bloger...

i have NOT been avoiding blogging - i have been struggling with balancing my life in and outside of work...

i am sure you have all heard of the multitude of school shootings.... however, MOST of them you have NOT heard about. being friends w/ members of the school police department has, for better or worse, kept me informed as how bad it has become

approximately three acts of profound school violence has occurred PER DAY since this school year started in mid-august.

thru 6-degree's of separation, two of these incidents have hit fairly close to me - even closer than 9/11 did....

a bloger friend (and i AM sorry i haven't gotten back to you) in the mid-west endured a full day of lock down, only to find out that a Columbine style assault had been planned at her school... even worse - the majority of the students in her one class period were all on the "hit list"

my family lives near lancaster county.... my mom has become friends with an mennonite family and actually spends time on their farm..... they are related somehow to one of the families who had a child in the amish school

since school started this year, i have been continually burred in paperwork - more than EVER before... so much to the point that i feel as though i am unable to give my students what they really need educationally as my time is spent either assessing them, being pulled to a meeting, or giving them "seat work."

i am sure my stress is visible to my students.... and i do worry that one of my students will take something that comes out of my mouth the wrong way

do i truly fear that i will be shot or held hostage?


but do i fear that something could go wrong in my school because we are all stressed out, have minimal security and doors that are not locked, and we work w/ some of the lowest SES kids in the state?


so, on a sunday night, i am still catching up on paperwork at 10:00pm so i can give my kids as much as i can during the day

and tomorrow morning i will start it all over again

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